Everything I've ever wanted... My amazing husband and my beautiful children. I am so grateful for the blessings in my life. I love these people with every ounce of my being, and they always find ways to show me how much they love and appreciate me. This is a special Christmas. It's the first in our beautiful apartment. It's also a difficult one. My brother was born on Christmas day. This is the first without him in this world. It has had it's painful moments. My family has been so wonderful, letting those moments flow in and out, without letting it take over. They understand. They get me. They get the layers of sorrow, regret, pain, and joy. What a gift they are to me. And somehow they have kept even this challenging Christmas ever so merry.