I wish I could see what You see in me...



Often, we are so busy trying to discover the secret of life that we forget to live. Often, we are so busy trying to discover the secrets to the universe that we forget we are floating in the midst of it. Often, we are so busy trying to discover the secrets of heaven, that we forget it is already upon us, before us... within us.

THIS IS IT! Right here. Right now. And there are no secrets.
If I had a nickel for every time I have heard a person say that they feel like someone on the outside looking in, I would be filthy rich. If I had a nickel for every time I have felt that way... I would be richer still. But, I am catching on.

I have always been a people watcher. My mind works like a scrapbook. Even as a young child, I would take emotional snapshots of moments that I knew would become special memories someday. Many people separate the human population into leaders and followers. I used to see it more as "doers" and "observers". And those two things did not necessarily stand void of each other. I was one of those who observed even as I was doing. And I did a lot. I was a joiner. A joiner who feels like an outsider? Yes. I was a joiner, who was also an extrovert, who also happened to feel like I didn't belong. As I aged, I thought I had that all figured out. I realized that not fitting in and feeling like an outsider wasn't necessarily a bad thing. To me, it meant that I was truly living my faith, and living as a pilgrim, just passing through. Part of that is true. I have attempted throughout most of my adult life to live in this world but not be "of" it.

But... there is a very corporal element to it as well. This universe is so big. Heaven is so mysterious. Life is so...... lifey. (No, it's not a word. I'm okay with that.) The thing is... we are flesh and spirit. We belong to heaven and earth. Life is long at the beginning... and short at the end. We are limited by the boundaries of our body... and set free by the unlimited potential of our souls. We get scared. We feel so small. We hear so many stories, we do not know which way to turn. We have so many choices, sometimes it paralyzes us with fear that if we make the wrong choice we blow the whole journey. We come to a crossroad that is so unsure, we choose to go back instead of forward.

The truth is everyone has all of the same fears, doubts, curiosities, boundaries, etc. Oh, sure... some people make it look better. Some people have more confidence. Some people accept the challenge and jump in without knowing what's next. Some people are fortunate to have the guidance of successful mentors, who help them move forward through the fears.

But other people... Other people are EXACTLY like you and me. They are hopeful and clueless all at the same time. They question everything and want to know all of the answers before taking the next step. They want to know the secret everyone else seems to know.

So, if everyone is alike, and if everyone is looking for a secret, and if there is no secret.... WHAT THE HECK???

You've heard the answer. I've heard the answer. Jill, down the street has heard the answer. Everyone says, "it's not that simple." But it is.  In my observations throughout the years, as well as the reading I've done, and the videos I've watched, successful people all have one thing in common. They just do it. They do what they love. They do it despite the fears. They do it despite the criticism. They do it nonstop. And they do it better and better as time goes on. The "it" is up to you, and me.

We are all created with unique gifts and talents. We all are created with a purpose.  We each are the only "me" in existence. Ever. For all eternity. And there is nothing or no one who can stop us from achieving our destiny. There is no such thing as taking the wrong path! Either way will lead us to where we are meant to be. Either direction has lessons.  If we could only see ourselves the way God sees us. He knows. And He has given us everything and everyone we need. Don't forget to appreciate the setbacks and the buttheads. Often, those are the things and people we need!!!

But we can't see what God sees in us unless we spend time with Him, and are open to His inspirations and providence. It takes a lot of trust to move forward unsure. But, the truth is that we often don't see the story unfolding until we stop standing still. It's kind of like G.P.S. You can turn it on, type in the correct address, and wait. And wait. And wait. You will never know where to go next until you take the brake off, and begin moving forward. If you take a wrong direction, it will recalculate. Hey... I like that. G.P.S. God's Providential Spirit.

We may not see what He sees in us. But we can be confident in knowing He does see it. It IS there. And nothing can stand in the way of our own story once we claim it and begin moving forward.

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